Tuesday, December 8, 2009
From The Mouth Of Babes ( Part 2 )
About a week later they called with good news & a list of documents to start gathering before the paperwork started arriving at our door. They were trying to prepare us for what we now know is a very intimidating, long & sometimes stressful job of compiling a dossier for a country. That is where they really get to know you up close & personal:) So, at this point we needed to tell the kiddos. If we were going to be going crazy running around to different offices & having social workers visit our house, they needed to know.
I had it all planned out how we were going to announce the BIG news. We would tell them the great news , everyone was going the cheer with excitement & then we were going for ice cream. So , after Adam got home from work & we lined the kids up all on the sofa. We reminded them of the conversation (6mo earlier ) of sponsoring a child and how we had decided to go one step further and bring a baby sister home.
SILENCE....... SOBBING.........Not the cheering I expected. They were in deep thought about the situation. My heart was broken. Did we make the wrong decision for our family ?
Zane was upset saying " Christmas will never be the same ! ". What he really meant was adding another sibling was sure to lower the odds of getting EVERYTHING on his Christmas list. Zoe cried because she wanted an older sister not a younger sister. Again , the IMAGE of what she wanted & the REALITY of what was to come did not match up. Then Carson, too young to invest such deep thought clapped his little hands.
Looking back at their reactions, I had had some of the same thoughts initially just not out loud to the whole world. Can we AFFORD to bring another child into our home? Can we AFFORD international adoption ? Do we want to go back to the baby years ? And then of course the excitement of the unknown possibility that we could. That is why we kept it a secret at first . WE needed time to wrestle with the same questions ourselves. And that's all the kids needed too & of course a little ice cream never hurts either :)